I'm re-reading a light novel and I don't think I'm going to figure this sentence out anytime soon...

Quick context: one day a man meets a teenage girl, makes it clear that although he finds her cute, he has no interest in her romantically since she's too young.

Next day, he starts talking to her more and starts berating her, calling her stupid and disapproving of her lifestyle. Mid-tirade, it cuts to his thoughts. The first two quotes I understand, but the last one confuses me:


Actually, seeing her face head-on, she is pretty cute


Wait, why. Why are feelings like that all that's stirring inside me?


I honestly feel young and like I'm in love. Are those feelings there because I couldn't live like that I wonder?

From what I found, まっとうに means decently, honestly, seriously. And 青春{せいしゅん}をする means to feel young or be reminded of your youth. So if I guessed about the first part it'd be "She's so earnestly young", but then there's a 恋{こい} out of nowhere. It doesn't make sense for him to have feelings for her- it's not brought up again for a while in the story and doesn't fit the current scene.

I'm really not sure who the subject is of the third quote or what the sentence means; I'm just not sure how to translate まっとうに exactly and how the 青春{せいしゅん}をする, 恋{こい}をする, and 生{い}きられなかった connect to the situation and his thoughts.

Any help will be appreciated!

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青春(を)する never means "to feel young" nor "to be reminded of your youth". It means something like "to enjoy the joys of youth" or "to spend one's youth in a satisfactory manner". まっとうに青春をする refers to spending a decent/ordinary life as a youth, which usually includes loving someone.


Enjoying her youth like everyone does, and loving someone like everyone does... Couldn't she live like this?

So this man is not regretting his own life, but is worrying about the girl's life, right? Then the subject of this 生きる should be the girl. Here, he's probably thinking something like "A teenager girl who is objectively this cute should be able to spend her youth happily with someone, but why is she living in such a wasteful way?"

  • Since 生きられなかった is past tense, wouldn't it mean "was she not able to live like that"?
    – user26484
    Sep 12, 2020 at 19:25
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    @user26484 Yes, but the tense depends largely on his mood. It's in the past tense maybe because he is somehow feeling her lifestyle is very difficult to amend at this point. If he thought she might change her mind, he would probably say 生きられないのだろうか instead.
    – naruto
    Sep 13, 2020 at 0:25

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